In this instance, I’m going to start by asking the cards, which option is best. But, after I ask, I’ll ask for clarification, for why the cards think so. Given that answer, you can, hopefully, find what you seek.
For the first question: Which option will work best for me? I pulled three cards.
0 The Fool - This card, I believe, speaks of where you are now, more potential than implementation. You’ve been in a holding pattern, not using your gifts, skills and assets to their fullest. Instead, you’ve been raising your children, which is an essential activity, but not so much a use of your gifts as a part of your nature, if you see the distinction. Your own future and potential has been held in abeyance, waiting. As a result, you have enjoyed some return to childlike innocence, some spontaneity, but also some dissatisfaction as your reins have pulled tighter and tighter.
King of Wands - This is your future, your choice, but, although it clearly indicates education, it isn’t clearly full time or part time. It does argue being in charge and responsibility, some measure of self-sacrifice and accomplishment.
Four of Pentacles - This adds to the same theme. Increased responsibility, material advantage, success, ownership.
My gut says this indicates one of the full time positions. I’ll double check. Ace of Wands would seem to agree.
I know this makes care for you children, even though they will both be going to school next year, more challenging. Let me ask why.
Ace of Pentacles (reversed) - this speaks of debt and financial setbacks. Seems logical that this is an indication of the economy and general uncertainties. Even if you aren’t in hardship, a solid job can not only provide financial margin but also give you a firm foothold for career in your own right, a prudent move in a volatile world.
Cups II (reversed) - normally, I would see this card as a sign of a relationship in trouble, but I don’t think it’s the case here. I think, instead, it’s an indication that you need to break away from the hold your relationships have had over your career. If you choose a career to accommodate your children’s needs in lieu of your own, you will not break out of your past pattern. You will always care deeply and care for your children. They will never lack for attention, but putting them before your needs here will mean your needs will continue to be unmet.
Queen of Swords - this speaks of feminine needs and self-reliance. You have a perception that you are not doing enough for yourself or your family. Your days are filled with tasks that are things you don’t prefer to do, but that you do because you feel it’s necessary, often at the expense of what you long to do. And you never feel it’s enough. You will need to be contributing on an a similar basis before you start to give yourself the same accommodations you carve out for everyone else in your family.
I was surprised because I was thinking you’d probably want to start part time and give yourself a better transition. However, as I look at the cards, clearly they think a clean start, jumping into something that give you real satisfaction and a sense of accomplishment is what will work best for you. And, when they put it that way, hey, I have to agree.
Hope that helps.
I think that there’s just too damn many variables in my life right now…. the health stuff is a big IF…. hoping that once we get to at least finding out what they’re going to do to try to solve it, then maybe things will get clearer … or not
and besides, as unclear as they’ve been the last few times, there hasn’t been anything to say “forget about it you’re wasting your time” …. it could be worse
so glad the cards were in favour of another back to school adventure…will have to let me know if/when you decide, oldwestmom…I’ll be thrilled to add you to my blogroll
Wow…the tarot is GOOD….
Hmmmmm. Looks like I have lots to think about. I’ve been researching options and while my life could be downright miserable for as long as a couple of years managing certification, trying to keep my job going, and keeping my family managed, this definitely deserves more consideration.
Where will I be in 2 years in my current career? Still miserable in my office, still moaning about my dried up potential? That’s probably the best case scenario, assuming my company and industry even survives these times intact.
I could pay my dues, go into a job that would be far more rewarding, and have a better schedule to spend time with my son and any future younglings to come.
Sounds like I’m talking myself into this…
Thanks for the reading, Steph. I’ll keep ya’ll posted.
oldwestmom, cultivating flit will be to your advantage if you do go back to school. She’s an old hand at it.
Do what is best for you, oldwestmom. If you want to pursue a career in science education, you couldn’t pick a more auspicious time.